So I’ve decided to write for 31 days… Just kidding. I like to write, and I don’t know how I will write every day for 31 days as I’ve not always been successful, so that’s the torturous part.
I told yall that I would break a bible study I’d written into 31 days of posts for you all, but I’ve completely changed my mind. I’m kinda sitting on the edge of my seat, but I’ve decided to post 31 days of Seeking Jesus because I need Jesus. You need Jesus. We all need Jesus. I hope you will join me while I look for Him, and I hope we both find Him in the process.
Change is hard yall. My head is swirling with things like community, how you have to let go of some things when you change in order to make room for whatever it is you’ve said yes to, and authenticity and perceptions. Like if I am perceived to be shy by others, but I don’t feel shy, am I really shy? And if so, how do I lean into that authentically? Can I, if I don’t accept it as truth?
This morning I was so thinking about how I am so wrecking my daughter’s life. I feel it because I have leaped, and I am feeling the jump. Kinda like how Jesus would call a disciple while he was casting his nets, and that disciple would just up and stop doing what he was doing and leave. I forgot how that uprooting feels. I am wishing I called to a friend and say, “Hey – come follow me and Jesus to do this homeschool thing – together” but that’s not how it went down. This following feels like a wreck – at times the bad kind, because it is opening places that I can trust Him deeper and more fully, and cling to Him in a new way. With all these questions and thoughts, I want to know Jesus more fully. These are the reasons why I need more Jesus right now. I am sure you have your own reasons. So let’s keep seeking and finding Him together – one verse and post at a time. I sincerely hope He meets us here, starting October 1st. I will update this page as I write: Seeking Jesus so bookmark it if you plan to follow along. Also, I will link it to the menu bar up top.
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